About a week ago through a freak accident that consisted of a metal mop pole into the side of my knee resulting, was the first of God trying to get my attention. I had never broken a bone a day in my life and the only other time I had stitches were through medical procedures (i.e wisdom teeth) but here the bone of my knee stood exposed and I could not shake the uncanny feeling that God was trying to tell me something. To confirm my feeling, later that week I came down with some unknown medical issue that mocked cholera (me losing 7 pounds in two days).
As I went to the doctor’s she was literally telling me that at 29 a fairly healthy women, was at risk for acute heart failure due to having some severe deficits in vitamins and fluids, with little to no explanation as to why this happened. I left the doctor’s office that day with a diagnosis of hypokalemia, dehydration, nausea, and a new outlook on what in the world was going on with me.
What was God trying to tell me in such a big way that I was
knocking on death’s door, literally? I
think the first is a very generic lesson that can apply to us all. And that is that our bodies our very
frail. I think often times we forget how
many things we do day in and day out that can kill us or cause us harm. When we think of God’s grace, love, and
everything in between, He really does protect us as we walk blindly through
life not really thinking of it one way or the next, getting so consumed in
things and never really giving all of our praise to God or even thanking him
for the unforeseen and seen dangers that we go through in our lives. And worse that something as small as a metal
mop handle can cut us to the white meat bone and something as minor as a deficiency
and kill us.
I think sometimes we just have to stop and smell the
roses. We have to look around and see
the beauty around us. I can never
understand how people can look at this world, the beauty, the wonder, the sky,
stars, moon, everything, and not understand or acknowledge that there is a
larger presence outside of ourselves. I
find it very strange that people can feel as if everything in this world and
universe just “so happens” to fall together on its own without a bigger force controlling
it. I think sometimes we forget that,
and maybe God just needs to give us a little reminder sometimes that there is
nothing that can even exist without God knowing about it.
Going off the strength of that, I think the bigger picture
for me was a wakeup call. I was getting
so pre-occupied with things that I “have” to do to, and not getting into the
things that I “need” to do, that I was missing something. The things that I “have” to do are things
that I must do for this world. This
includes going to work, paying bills, etc.
Things that I “need” to do are those in which God called me to do. The word teaches us that many are called but
few are chosen. What the means to me is
that God is crying out to us every day, calling us, drawing us near. He wants us, all of us, and often times no
matter how loud He is calling our name.......He just simply goes unheard, as we
miss a calling completely.
God is everything, He created everything. There really is nothing beyond that when you
think about it. Whatever our wants,
desires, and needs outside or God, are just that….”desires” it is not our
calling. As I was going day in and day
out, going through my life, movement, and everything else, I got side
tracked. God needed to have me incapacitated,
with no outside distractions, before He could tell me what He wanted to say. He needed to knock all the skin off my knee,
to the “bone” in order for me to stop to hear His voice. I needed to have 2 IV’s, 2 EKGS, 2 blood
works, and 2 urine samples (all in which has results telling me that I was down
for the count) in order to be reminded who is in charge.
I needed to be reminded who controlled my life, my calling, weather I breathed air on this Earth or not. God needed me to know that it’s all for Him. Everything, the reason I live, breath, exists, my talents…everything is all for Him and His purpose. It is so easy to be and get complacent and just watch the days, nights, weeks, months, years, go by and life has past you by. Before you know it God had been calling you the whole time, but yet you did not hear so you were not chosen.
I needed to be reminded who controlled my life, my calling, weather I breathed air on this Earth or not. God needed me to know that it’s all for Him. Everything, the reason I live, breath, exists, my talents…everything is all for Him and His purpose. It is so easy to be and get complacent and just watch the days, nights, weeks, months, years, go by and life has past you by. Before you know it God had been calling you the whole time, but yet you did not hear so you were not chosen.
Is it fearful to blindly follow God without knowing where He
is leading you?…yes!!! God tells some
people their calling out right, for me, He doesn’t. He only tells me what I need to do for the
time being until I reach the next stage of my life. Then, when I start to stray from what He is
telling me to do, He knows quickly how to whip me back into shape, even at the
expense of my health. And, the thing is…
I do not think I mind. My body is God’s. Everything within me and everything that I
have is His. There is nothing great that
I can do on my own accord and without His blessing.
Reflect on yourself, reflect what is going on in your life, and
reflect on what God is trying to tell you.
If you cannot hear what He is trying to tell you, then get into a quiet
place until He you do, pray until He answers, fast until you hear Him, do
whatever it is you need to do until God speak to you. Even if you do not hear
Him speak, look around you, look at what is going on around you, and look at
what He is doing. God is always speaking
to us; He is always calling us, choosing us.
So why don’t you go freely, do not be like me and wait until half of your
bodily fluids are falling out before you pay attention. Be called and be chosen.
